Pubescent

A poem for my eldest daughter.

 

Pubescent
on the brink
not knowing where you are
body changing
rearranging
from one day to the next
hormones raging
who asked them?
I was doing fine before you arrived
moods shifting
like bumps on my face
Somedays I am so full of hate
of all the change
all the angst
all the rearranging in my brain
thinking
sleeping
where did happy thoughts go?
Sleeping
thinking
always dreaming of life
I do not know
what I want
or who I am
or how this new story
is suppose to go
One moment up
the next down in despair
this emotional roller coaster
has got to go
when will it end
this trying on hats
When will I know
where I am at?
When will life slow down again
when can I become a caterpillar
in my chrysalis?
Can you wake me up
When it’s all done?
Chase Young is the founder of The Mommy Rebellion a place for judgment-free parenting.  She’s created a place to get tips, tools and support for what it is truly like to be a mother, stories from the trenches that show you you’re not alone.  Tips that real mothers use.  Tools to give to yourself and to your parenting friends to feel more focused, have more patience and energy, and feel less tired and snappy .  
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The Silence of the Morning

Am I the only one who feels like this?  That if you don’t get up while everyone else is still sleeping you might never find the quiet again?

 

 

The silence of the morning
Before anyone gets up
When the day feels fresh and new
and your eyes are groggy still
The fuzziness of your brain
Is creeping round the corners
Of your mind
But the alarm has gone off
And as a mother
Of children
You know
If you don’t get up now
and enjoy
The silence of the morning
It might never
EVER
Happen
Again.

Chase Young is the founder of The Mommy Rebellion a place for judgment-free parenting.  She’s created a place to get tips, tools and support for what it is truly like to be a mother, stories from the trenches that show you you’re not alone.  Tips that real mothers use.  Tools to give to yourself and to your parenting friends to feel more focused, have more patience and energy, and feel less tired and snappy .  
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It’s about showing up

They say how you show up in one area of your life is how you show up in all of them.

 

Showing up with smiles on the first of several 12 hour flights.

Parenting is like writing this blog.

It’s about showing up.

Consistently, reliably, on time.

Whether I feel like it or not, whether my hair is having a good day or not.

Showing up, and putting out content, showing up and loving my daughters, in however they need that to look today.

Every single time.

Without the ability to see if what I am doing is really working, if it is failing, if anyone at all is listening.

But still, I show up.

On the good days, on the bad days, and most importantly on the mediocre days.  Those always seem the hardest.

Here I am.  Are you here?  Is there anyone out there?

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What does showing up, no matter what look like in your life?

Chase Young is the founder of The Mommy Rebellion a place for judgment-free parenting.  She’s created a place to get tips, tools and support for what it is truly like to be a mother, stories from the trenches that show you you’re not alone.  Tips that real mothers use.  Tools to give to yourself and to your parenting friends to feel more focused, have more patience and energy, and feel less tired and snappy .  
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Driving

One of my little-known talents is that I have been writing poetry since I was probably about 11.  It’s something that has gotten me through super hard times, and yet has been something I have continued to push away as an adult.  I am working on re-embracing myself as a writer.  This was written 23 October 2015, but sums up life as a mother sometimes.  All we do is drive.

 

Driving
I’m always driving
Constantly
Stuck behind
This
Wheel
The road rarely
Changes
Only the stories
In our heads
And the words
Left unsaid
Driving
I’m always
Driving
Never
Arriving
Or leaving
Just driving
And if it’s about the
Journey
And not
The destination at the
End
Then what
The
Hell
Am I doing
Again?
Driving
Always
Driving
Without
End.

Chase Young is the founder of The Mommy Rebellion a place for judgment-free parenting.  She’s created a place to get tips, tools and support for what it is truly like to be a mother, stories from the trenches that show you you’re not alone.  Tips that real mothers use.  Tools to give to yourself and to your parenting friends to feel more focused, have more patience and energy, and feel less tired and snappy .  
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