A poem for my eldest daughter.
Pubescent
on the brink
not knowing where you are
body changing
rearranging
from one day to the next
hormones raging
who asked them?
I was doing fine before you arrived
moods shifting
like bumps on my face
Somedays I am so full of hate
of all the change
all the angst
all the rearranging in my brain
thinking
sleeping
where did happy thoughts go?
Sleeping
thinking
always dreaming of life
I do not know
what I want
or who I am
or how this new story
is suppose to go
One moment up
the next down in despair
this emotional roller coaster
has got to go
when will it end
this trying on hats
When will I know
where I am at?
When will life slow down again
when can I become a caterpillar
in my chrysalis?
Can you wake me up
When it’s all done?
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This is beautiful! I really remember that age and it felt so hard at the time. SOOO many emotions.